Images by J-M. Folon and J-J. Grandville. |
When Gregor Samsa woke up one morning from
strange dreams, he found himself changed in his bed into a monstrous vermin
He was lying on his back as hard as armor plate, and when he lifted his
head a little, he saw his vaulted brown belly, sectioned by arch-shaped
ribs, to whose dome the cover, about to slide off completely, could barely
cling. His many legs, pitifully thin compared with the size of the rest
of him, were waving helplessly before his eyes.
What's happened to me?" he thought. It was no dream His room, a regular
human room, only a little on the small side lay quiet between the four
familiar walls. Over the table, on which an unpacked fabric samples was
all spread out—Samsa was a traveling salesman—hung the picture which he
had recently cut out of a glossy magazine and lodged in a pretty gilt frame.
It showed a lady done up in a fur hat and a fur boa, sitting upright and
raising up against the viewer a heavy fur muff in which her whole forearm
had disappeared.
Gregor's eyes then turned to the window, and the overcast weather—he
could hear raindrops hitting against the metal window ledge—completely
depressed him. "How about going back to sleep for a few minutes and forgetting
all this nonsense" he thought, but that was completely impracticable,
since he was used to sleeping on his right side and in his present state
could not get into that position. No matter how hard he threw himself
onto his right side, he always rocked onto his back again. He must have
tried it a hundred times, closing his eyes so as not to have to see his
squirming legs, and stopped only when he began to feel a slight, dull pain
in his side, which he had never felt before.
"Oh God," he thought, "what a grueling job I've picked. Day in, day
out—on the road. The upset of doing business is much worse than the actual
business in the home office and, besides, I've got the torture of traveling,
worrying about changing trains, eating miserable food at all hours, constantly
seeing new faces, No relationships that last or get more intimate. To the
devil with it all!" He felt a slight itching up on top of his belly; shoved
himself slowly on his back closer to the bedpost, so as to be able to lift
his head better; found the itchy spot, studded with small white dots which
he had no idea what to make of; and wanted to touch the spot with one of
his legs but immediately pulled it back, for the contact sent a cold shiver
though him.
He slid back again into his original position. ~
"Getting up so early" he thought, "makes anyone a complete idiot. Human
beings have to have their sleep. Other traveling salesmen live like harem
women. For instance, when I go back to the hotel before lunch to write
up the business I've done, these gentlemen are just having breakfast. That's
all I'd have to try with my boss; I'd be fired on the spot. Anyway, who
knows if that wouldn't be a very good thing for me. If I didn't hold back
for my parents' sake, I would have quit long ago, I would have marched
up to the boss and spoken my piece from the bottom of my heart. He would
have fallen off the desk! It is funny, too, the way he sits on the desk
and talks down from the heights to the employees, especially when they
have to come right up close on account of the boss's being hard of hearing.
Well, I haven't given up hope completely; once I've gotten the money together
to pay off my parents' debt to him—that will probably take another five
or six years—I'm going to do it without fail Then I'm going to make the
big break. But for the time being 'd better get up, since my train leaves
at five.. |