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unit one |
The Dead in Love (excerpts)
One morning I was sitting by her bedside, eating my breakfast upon a
little table so as not to leave her for a moment. As I was slicing some
fruit, I accidentally cut myself with the knife and made a rather deep
gash in my finger. The blood flowed instantly from the wound, and several
purple drops spurted onto Clarimonde. Her eyes lit up, her features took
on an expression of fierce, savage delight that I had never before seen
in her. She leaped from the bed with animal agility, with the nimbleness
of a cat or monkey, and threw herself upon my wound, which she began sucking
with an air of unutterable pleasure. She sipped the blood slowly and with
great care, like an epicure savoring a Xeres or Syracuse wine; her
green eyes were half closed, and her round pupils had become slits. Now
and then she stopped to kiss my hand, then pressed her lips again to the
lips of the wound so as to draw out a few more red drops. When she saw
that no more blood was flowing, she got up, her eyes shining, her skin
rosier than a Spring dawn, her face full, her hands warm and moist—in a
perfect state of health and more beautiful than ever.
"One drop, just one little red drop, a touch of red at the end of my
needle! ... Since you still love me, I must not die.... Ah, poor love,
I shall drink your beautiful, brilliant, crimson blood. Sleep, my only
treasure, sleep, my god, my child; I will not hurt you, I will take of
your life only what is absolutely vital to my own. If I did not love you
so, I might bring myself to take other lovers whose veins I could drain,
but since I have known you, all others flll me with abhorrence . . . Ah—what
a lovely arm! How plump it is! How white! l I shall never dare to prick
that pretty blue vein." And as she spoke, she wept, and I felt her tears
raining down upon my arm, which she held between her hands. Finally she
plucked up her resolve, pricked me lightly with her needle and began to
suck up the blood that flowed from it. Then, fearing to exhaust me although
she had swallowed scarcely a few drops, she carefully wrapped up my arm
with a little strip of bandage after having rubbed it with an ointment
that immediately closed the wound.
(...)Serapion made the most vehement exhortations, reproaching me severely
for my listlessness and lack of fervor. One day when I had been more agitated
than usual, he told me, 'There is only one way to rid yourself of this
obsession, and although it is extreme, we must resort to it: powerful
evils require powerful remedies. I know where Clarimonde was interred;
she must be exhumed, so that you may see the object of your love in her
true, pitiful condition. You will no longer be tempted to perdition for
the sake of a vile corpse, devoured by worms and about to crumble into
dust; this will surely bring you to your senses." For my part, I
was so weary of this double life that I assented wishing to find out, once
and for all, whether it was the priest or the nobleman who was the victim
of an illusion, I was resolved to kill one of the two men within me to
save the other—or to kill both, for such a life had become unendurable.
Father Serapion provided a pick, a crowbar, and a lantern, and at midnight
we set off toward the cemetery of ***, the location and layout of which
he knew perfectly. After having cast the dull light of the lantern upon
the inscriptions of several tombs, we finally came to a stone half buried
in long grass and weeds and covered with moss and parasites, on which we
deciphered this beginning of an inscription:
"This is the place," said Serapion, and setting down his lantern, he
slipped the crowbar into the crack in the stone and started to raise it
up. The stone gave way, and he set to work with the pick. I stood watching
him, somber and silent as the night. As for him, bent over his lugubrious
task, he was dripping with sweat, and his rapid, heavy breath was like
a death rattle. It was truly a strange spectacle, and anyone who might
have seen us would have taken us for thieves and profaners of the tomb
rather than for priests of God. Serapion's zeal had something savage and
cruel about it that made him resemble a demon more than an apostle or an
angel, and his large, austere features, sharply outlined in the glimmer
of the lantern, were far from comforting. I felt a cold sweat break out
in beads upon my limbs, and my hair stood painfully on end; in the depths
of my heart I regarded the severe Father's action as a heinous sacrilege,
and I would have been glad if from the dark clouds moving heavily above
us there had issued forth a triangle of flame to reduce him to dust. The
owls perched in cypresses, disturbed by the light of the lantern, beat
heavily upon the glass with their dusty wings, uttering plaintive cries;
foxes yelped in the distance, and a host of ominous sounds emanated from
the silence. Finally Serapion's pick struck against the boards of the coffin,
which re-echoed with a muffled, sonorous sound, with the dreadful reverberation
of the void. He drew back the lid, and I saw Clarimonde, pale as marble,
her hands clasped, her white shroud enveloping her from head to foot. A
tiny red drop glistened like a rose at the corner of her colorless lips.
At this sight, Serapion flew into a fury "Ah, there you are, demon, shameless
courtesan, devourer of blood and gold!" And he sprinkled holy water over
the body and the coffin, making the sign of the cross with his sprinkler.
Poor Clarimonde had no soonèr been touched by the holy dew than
her lovely body fell to dust, and nothing was left but a hideous, shapeless
mass of ashes and half-charred bones. "Behold your mistress, Lord Romuald,"
said the inexorable priest, pointing to the sad remains. "Will you be tempted,
now, to stroll upon the Lido and at Fusina with your beauty?" I bowed my
head; something had just collapsed into a ruin within me. I returned to
my presbytery, and Lord Romuald, lover of Clarimonde, parted at last from
the poor priest with whom he had for so long kept such strange company.
But the following night, I saw Clarimonde. She said to me, as she had that
first time under the church portal, "Unhappy man! Unhappy man! What have
you done? Why did you listen to that stupid priest? Were you not happy?
And what have I done to you, that you should violate my tomb and lay bare
my wretched nothingness? All communication between our souls and our bodies
is henceforth broken. Farewell, you shall mourn me." She vanished into
the air like smoke, and I never saw her again.
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